'Lost and Found' person

...a strange kind of longing. I love London immensely, but I cannot imagine myself living here. The past three months have been an emotional turmoil, no matter ow fun they were. I feel like suffocating, feel like dying, I cannot imagine myself surviving the week left before I go home.
And yet I cannot imagine myself leaving this city. It's mine. It's crawled inside my heart and taken roots in there. When I leave, my heart will stay here.

I'm such a mess. How am I ever going to go back the way I was?
I'm not.

I must admit, that was slow of me.
I just realized that JKR totally plagiarized goblins' possessiveness towards their treasures from Tolkien. The whole story with the Sword mirrors Silmarillion.
Damn.

I very much wanted to leave this journal RL-less, but I simply can't.
It's not every day, that you move to another country, eh?
So, it's five days till I leave for London and I'm SCARED shitless. My friend, who went to Leon (France) is so miserable out there, all alone and the French seem to hate her, because of her not-really-perfect French (and maybe because she has Arabic name and Arabic looks).
Not that I really think everyone'll hate me straight away, but I very much expect to be miserable.
Oh, and I wanted to spend Christmas in London, but my visa ends on 22nd of December, which is really sad.

The more I think about it, the more I agree with those who think that Marauders were a bunch of little shitheads. I mean - prior to book 7 the fandom thought that after the Shrieking Shack incident they pretty much stopped trying to get to Snape. But then we get to know that the Shrieking Shack was BEFORE the Underpants Downfall. They almost killed Snape and kept on bullying him? That's... wow. And those are the 'good guys' - James Potter, the epitome of goodness and bravery, Sirius Black, the perfect Gryffindor and Remus Lupin, the morality personified. Oh, and don't forget about Lily Potter, the Hogwarts' angel. The one who dumped her friend because of a single offensive word. Never mind that the friend in question was not in position to actually judge what he was saying. Or that she replied in kind.
Awesome. Probably, they did grow up and did turn out to be better people. But I don't understand those, who justify their actions when they were young.

...he led me towards things unknown to man

Just what is Jurstin Richard's fascination with all Russian? Is it his not-so-secret kink? First there was 'The deviant strain', which was so God-awful that I couldn't bear to finish it. Then there's 'The clockwise man'.

By themselves, the books are alright, honestly. His writing is alright. But I really can't get past his horrible mistakes about Russia. I'm not talking about some empirical knowledge, nope. He gets solid facts wrong, and that is really annoying.

So, there's a kid, Frederick. Presumably, the next in the line of succession of the Russian Empire. Cool. Never mind, that Nicholas II actually signed a contract, saying that neither he and his relatives give up all the right to the Russian throne. And he did it, I think, after the February revolution, not October one. No matter, let's get back to the kid. Frederick. Yes, I can believe he'd be called that absolutely not Russian name - in the end, generation after generation of Russian royalty married Germans. BUT. The kid was born in 1914-1915. In 1915! The sodding WWI! Um, hello! The fucking CAPITAL CITY was renamed because it's name was German! And you think that a kid from royalty would get a German name?! You gotta be kidding me!

(And, btw, it's not 'Tsar'. I know, I know, the word sounds really cool and is used left and right. But. Since 1721 it was the Russian Empire. So, excuse me, but the head of the Russian Empire would be the Emperor. )

Oh, God, flashmobes these days! :)))

I think I need to start this journal with something positive and something fandom-related, since the sole reason I started it is fandom and all the crap that's going on with 6A.

It so happened that just yesterday my friends and I ventured into mad-cosplay-land. In other words, we cosplayed Hogwarts of MWPP-era.


(Left to right - Remus, Rosier, Sirius, Lily, Snape, Narcissa)



Thank you, Love Squad. Thank you, Captain, for your awesome Snape. Thanks to the photographers and their marvelous work. I love y'all.